As ever, love the unfiltered honesty Carlos. I suspect I have rejection sensitive dysphoria too, especially when it comes to sharing my artistic work and approaching people romantically: expecting to be rejected in advance, letting that shape the way I act, then interpreting people's response to my defensive manner as being rejecting. I also have a self-lacerating inner voice, and had a sense growing up that nothing I did was ever enough ('What does it take?'). A lack of support growing up fostered shame, shame fosters a sense that I'm separate from others, that fosters anger at everyone else, I get ashamed of my anger, so now we have more shame, which means more anger, etc etc.
So these days I'm trying to stop pruning my own falcon, other people's falcons and the great falcon of reality itself.
I think shadow work is about accepting the self-lacerating inner voice, and the shame, and the anger, and so on. They're all parts of oneself that are trying to help. I was just talking to my therapist today, who said, among other things, that the critical inner voice is basically trying to protect me, for example.
As ever, love the unfiltered honesty Carlos. I suspect I have rejection sensitive dysphoria too, especially when it comes to sharing my artistic work and approaching people romantically: expecting to be rejected in advance, letting that shape the way I act, then interpreting people's response to my defensive manner as being rejecting. I also have a self-lacerating inner voice, and had a sense growing up that nothing I did was ever enough ('What does it take?'). A lack of support growing up fostered shame, shame fosters a sense that I'm separate from others, that fosters anger at everyone else, I get ashamed of my anger, so now we have more shame, which means more anger, etc etc.
So these days I'm trying to stop pruning my own falcon, other people's falcons and the great falcon of reality itself.
I think shadow work is about accepting the self-lacerating inner voice, and the shame, and the anger, and so on. They're all parts of oneself that are trying to help. I was just talking to my therapist today, who said, among other things, that the critical inner voice is basically trying to protect me, for example.
Radical acceptance of the unaccepting!!