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Very well expressed. The 'slack' reminds me of what Trungpa calls the 'setting sun' world. I associate it with aversion, depression, overwhelm and laziness (and what is laziness but aversion and overwhelm?). The 'pull' is what forces us to transcend ourselves and try to leave the world better than we found it, one tiny decision at a time.

Once again I'm impressed by your honesty - you're saying what you really think here rather than parroting the typical wisdom in spiritual circles. Some people teach that you should only ever seek out the pull, and others say life's about a balance between pull and slack, but you're right: for most of us the first is inauthentic and monomaniacal (even Jesus wasn't above feasting, drinking and having a good time!), while the second is off-base too: a world with just as much slack as pull is one of enormous waste and suffering.

We seem to be caught in the middle of some process we don't understand, in both physical and spiritual terms.

Physically, we're here because of natural selection, which advances via genetic competition and fitness (i.e. immense bloodshed and suffering) - but as cooperative groups outcompete purely selfish, individualistic ones, also encourages cooperation and bonding (i.e. what makes life meaningful and sweet). So darkness-reaching-towards-light is baked into the nature of things - and now that our species is capable of making conscious decisions, we can choose to maximise the sweet and fight against the sour.

And spiritually, we're supposed to advance towards the light, while acknowledging our darkness and accepting the existence of evil and suffering in the world. So many things are terrible, and yet everything is in its right place. A very delicate balancing act.

It's sort of like a TV show that has a ton of bad things happening to the characters, then ends on a dramatically satisfying finale where everything comes right in the end. In a sense the final episode is the best one because it's what the rest were building towards, but it's equally true that it would have no impact without their lead-up - they need it, and it needs them. The whole show is "good", even the bits where what's happening isn't good at all.

It seems that the universe requires drama in the same way TV shows do, the destination giving meaning to the journey, the journey giving meaning to the destination. Zoom out far enough, and it's all happening at the same moment, a single moment in which all of us are being remorselessly pulled upwards.

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